This is how it is

It is so different than it looks like
So different as it seems
So different, that you can not figure it out like that
If you rhyme it that ignorant

With a lot of detailed love
Our creator made us
And so there is a lot
That you can not do without him
We are walking on threads
Of darkness and do not notice
That every one of our acts
Is a piece of the whole

In tangle it is hard to say
Who is a friend and whom an enemy
This is how we are going to tell
Some people say
That they make their decision out of their stomach
I hope it will be the correct one
Because that is how it is

The bottom soon will be the top
But the top will be soon gone
We are being lied to a lot
Until we notice what is really true
This is why our view of our world is blurry
Because she is shaking
But the truth that I am describing
We knew about it from day one
And that is how she is
J.W

Closer

So lately I have been feeling like Carry From Sex and the City. Haha silly me!
Where ever I go my laptop is with me. Not only that I am writing here, I started a poem journal too.
Let me start talking about the title closer though.
It is a beautiful rainy evenening and I just finished watching the movie CLOSER. Wow what a weird movie. It is about 2 couples who are in love with their partners, breaking up and getting together with their exs's partners. I have been through a lot in past relationships and know that love can be confusing, but not that confusing. What I never understood is, that if people just want to "fuck around" then why are they in a relationship. Just stay single people! Why do they try to commit and at the end hurt peoples feelings. The reason for a lot of people is that they want that kind of comfort it makes them feel safe in away. I mean we are all selfish at the end.

Gigi D'agostino

No matter how I feel, this always puts a smile on my face!

My body

Like I said in the beginning this blogspot will be a place where I wil let all of my thoughts down.FYI this might be too much for some people!
So my thoughts this weekend were all about my body.
It is funny how we all have a certain clock in our bodies.
Every morning I wake up at a certain time, 5.55 a.m. I am amazed with myself, because I am still tired at that time, but I do get up. I just have to gain 1 or 2 pounds and I know right away, because I bite my inner cheek. Like I did last night. Hehe it kind of pissed me of, but hey what can I expect. I had the worse hangover and for some reason I felt like a had a whole in my tummy. So my meal yesterday was ice cream! Dove ice cram, wow it's the best. Of course I knew that the reason for my ice cream craving just wasn't my hangover. It's the time of the month.After I stopped taking birth control, it is so unregular. The only time I know it's coming is when my breasts start hurting. The first day is always the worse.It's the worse pain ever.It feels like somebody is stabbing me in my abdomen. Oh I can not wait to be in labor!!! That was a joke! But I have to say that I am curious how it will fell when my body will change during pregnancy. It must be so amazing knowing that your child is growing inside of you.
Also, I am going to add something to my body soon. I am going to get a tattoo. I was thinking about it for a long time.I am doing it for myself. At first I thought, how would my future partner feel aout it, will it make me look dirty or slutish? It is going to be a small 1, and it will compliment me. I should of gotten it before, so now i will have to wait until after the summer. Since I love the beach, lakes, everything with water, and It would prob. be a hassle to keep it covered so it could heal right. Plus I want my tummy to totally be flat for it! Oh no I kind of gave it away, wher it is going to be.

Flaws and All

To my surprise I like this song. Although I really do not like stuck up Beyonce and her music, this song I like. It is just so simple and true!

Crazy Friday

Right now I am sitting on my bed, and am listening to Coralie Clement, who is an amazing french musician. Anyway let me start writing about my "crazy friday".

My work day went by pretty fast. Me and my co worker decided to go to the International Hoboken Film Festival. Our driver Tom gave us tickets, since his daughter is the producer of the movie. I live really close to Hoboken, so we decided on going to my apt. after work. We had a few cocktails. I usually don't drink that much but I have no Idea what happened yesterday! A friend told me not to long ago " Jen live a little". I think about it a lot.

Anyway so as we were getting ready we actually emptied a whole bottle. We were so tipsy and it was really refreshing walking to the train station. We were laughung because a lot of people were looking at us, I guess because it was only 6ish, we were all dressed up walking in the rain and were already tipsy. I COULD OF CARED LESS. On the train this nice couple gave us a bottle of wine, haha so we started 2 drink that 2. Arriving in Hoboken we had to look for the Festival. It was supposed to be by the Hudson, overlooking the Skyline. But due to the weather it was inside. When we arrived at the theatre it was already all seated. I was talking to this friendly guy, who got us chairs b4 the show started. Sorry Tommy but the movie was BORING. We only ended up staying 1 hour, we were way to hyper to sit there. We were debating if we should hop on the path, or to stay in hoboken. We actually stayed in Hoboken, and went to a Lounge "Lana". We got there so early so we were just relaxing and looking at all those young silly chicks, that were trying to impress the guys with their slutish dance moves. Missy used 2 dance 2, so we knew what we were talking about. We started to drink Margaritas, yes I am surprised to that I mention it in the plural version. Oh man all those calories....

I have not felt like this in such a long time. It was a good feeling.We couldn't wait any longer so we were the 1st ones on the dance floor. You would think that oher people would start dancing too. But no, everbody was standing around the dance floor and was watching us. It was like we were giving a show. The dj and 1 of the bouncers came over and asked if we were working 2night. Hehe they thought we were the dancers maybe because we were juming from 1 podest to the other.

After a while people started dancing 2. It felt like I was back at the LOVE PARADE. Allt they would play for the first hours was techno and trance. I loved it! It is so much fun dancing with Missy. Usually my friends sit down, and watch me which I don't mind, but Miss was there the whole time. She is as crazy as I am. At 1 point we got really crazy and freaky, and all the weird guys were around us, and you would see the girls giving us cruel looks. I bet you they thought we were lesbians. After a few hours we were dancing barefoot. A good friend of mine picked us up. He knows that I can get quite crazy when I am tipsy ( i mean I was drunk, lol) and he is a sweetheard. His girlfriend hates it !!!!

I really enjoyed myself.

This morning I felt a big mess. I slept for 3 hours!

I drove up 2 harlem, to get my friends and take them to JFK. Yes 2day my Maddis left. It was sad saying bye, but I'll see her soon. Going into her apt. was like going to a fleemarket. She gave me so many things. I love her style, I got a lot of her art work she couldn't take.

I was going to post a viedeo from last night, but I don't know how I did it, but I broke my camera last night, haha.

Coldplay- Yellow

Hudertwasser

So I a wanted to write something about one of my favorite artists, let me begin...

"People have to understand that they are the most dangerous vermin, that were and will be on this beautiful planet" by Friedensreich Hundertwasser

Friedrich Stowasser was born into a Jewish family in 1928 in Vienna Austria.
In 1949 he changed his name into Friedensreich Hundertwasser, which means “peaceful hundred waters”.
He suffered from a heart attack and died on the Queen Elizabeth 2 in 2000.
His artistic influence in painting and sculpture he even transformed into buildings.
His colorful paintings where inspired by nature and especially Egon Schiee and Gustav Klimt.
That is how the environmental activist created his own “Hundertwasser syle”.

He was very popular in Europe. He considered New Zealand as his official home (he was buried there too), where he lived on his boat “Regentag” (rain day).

Hundertwasser called the straight line the devils work, and shocked everybody with naked skin!
He said it was ungodly, because she does not occur in nature. That is why he demanded in his “moldy manifest” that the straight line should be banned.
From his manifest “Just carrying a straight line should be forbidden”.
Hundertwasser’s labyrinth, circle, spiral and raindrops style got its roots from the permanent tension and fear, that he had to live through during 1938-1945.
His work has been used for flags, stamps, coins, posters, schools, churches, public toilets in Germany and his adopted home of New Zealand.
His most famous flag is the Koru flag, which has been proposed as a secondary flag for New Zealand.
In 1999 he started his last project. Although he never finished this work completely, the building was put up a few years later in Magdeburg, a town in central Germany.

Artist, graphic designer, individualist, philosopher, environmental activist, architect – Friedensreich Hundertwasser’s life was his work, and his work his life.

Music

Music to me is everything, and I listen to it all the time. Starting from when I wake up.The first thing I do in the morning is turn on music. Of course depending on how I feel I listen to different genres. It can be from Tchaikovski to Marley, Cat Stevens,Bjoerk,Lustral, Matis,Beatles,Sean. I could go on and on. I love music! Even when I was young about 4 or 5, I always remember driving in my uncles car and singing to every song we listenend to. I grew up with music. There was never a time my moms would not play music, or wouldn't sing to me. Music is the reason to why I started dancing. I love to move to it in all different types of ways. It is funny though how shy I can be about it at times, although I know that I am very good at it.
Anyway I relate to music in so many different ways.