Bondi Beach

THe Zombies

Andy Warhol

Goldfrapp

Aeschylus

Who learns must suffer
Even in our sleep
Pain that can not forget
falls drop by drop upon the heart
And in our own despair
Against our will
Comes wisdom to us

yup

Bleeding love

Murf's b-day

I hate being sick

The last 2 months were not really that good health wise. I might be fallin appart!? Last week I was @ the doc twice for a stupid bladder infection, and right now I am here again/just leaving just waiting for some papers. I have a stomach bug, and my stomach didn't react too well on the antis I have been taking. The result of that was, that everything I tried to drink, or ate came right back up, plus very strong tummy cramps.
So all I should eat now is liquid food, wow how interesting. Being sick is just way to boring 4 me. Who knows what I am going to do with myself today. Yesterday I watched all those silly tv shows, BOOOORING. I felt much worse yesterday only because I didn't get it that I shouldn't eat! At night time I was making a big pot of tea and spilled teh boiling water over my habd. Thank g-d it's ok, but it was quite painful.

Hmmm nothing really inspires me lately I def. need to find a new muse! Besides that my life seems to be getting better by the day. I even got over the fact hat I am not going home for x-mas.

Ok they just called my name, I'll be back later

I am beautiful

That’s what I told myself this morning while looking into the mirror.
My ex pretty much messed up my self esteem, and I just need to get I up there for my own good.
No matter how much attention I get it doesn’t matter because it is stuck in my head.
So yesterday it clicked while talking to my best friend.
I got kind of dissed by a not so good looking guy at all, so that really had me thinking. I know it’s not about looks but that just pissed me off.

And she was right, it doesn’t matter how people think how beautiful I am unless I do the same!.
Low self esteem is being build up in your early childhood already. The wrong attention can totally affect it in a bad way. Well that’s not my case. I had some stupid immature selfish guy in my life, who thought by talking me down, I would never leave him and actually believe in his words.

I should really know better, but I always had a problem with that. So this morning I woke up with a totally different attitude.
Although I looked a mess from too much wine the night before, I was standing in front of the mirror and told myself “Jen you are beautiful”.
Just getting dressed today was different, and while walking to my car my roomy told me that I walked differently.
Although it is raining like crazy today, I am just really happy today